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Post by Jacob Pierce on Mar 8, 2016 21:10:35 GMT 2
----- Somebody or Some Body -----  --- Helping out --- They stayed like that for a while, Jacob being silently being held by Max. Not everything was settled, they still had no plan on how to reach out to Ruby, how to fix Ruby’s broken heart. But just for a moment, Jacob wanted to believe everything would be fine. The hand on his hair felt comforting, so caring in all his gestures, he could’ve stayed like that in silence for a long time. But eventually Max broke the silence, his words bringing worry that made Jacob stiffen, but he didn’t break the hug, listening carefully to what the man was proposing. The dinner with Shaun, everything was so much simpler then, he had two friends that he was learning to care for, for the first time putting his life in line to protect another person. Before he knew he had any feelings for them, before Ruby kissed him and put his feeling in turmoil, when they were just friends who enjoyed each other’s presence. The good moments they had on Ruby’s birthday crossed his mind, he wanted those moments back.
But not everything could go back to what it was, too much had changed, hurtful things were said. But if they could do something to at least have each other again, to be certain they’d have each other’s back always, Jacob thought it was worth to try. “You can’t erased what you did. But maybe we can…. Start again? If you get on your knees and beg for forgiveness.” He kept his face buried on Max’s neck, his voice coming muffled, never releasing his shirt, but his grip no long too tight.
So in the end, Jacob was more right than he imagined. They said they weren’t a couple, but they had an agreement that they wouldn’t be seeing other people without the other knowing. It wasn’t as biding as dating, but it was still a form of commitment. “Pfff, not a couple. You’re such a liar.” Was all he said on the subject. Briefly he wondered if Max would have broken things off because of him, he’d like to believe that no, but he couldn’t be sure. And as expected, Max’s declaration of his feelings didn’t mean they’d go anywhere, there was no relationship to be had. It was new to him, indeed, and he was terrified of trying anything, but at the same time, he felt disappointed that he would just… not even consider… But he was right, the mess with Ruby should be resolved before they made any other decision, so he stayed quiet about his disappointment and still held Max closely. “Just… I don’t know what I could possibly do to make things get better… but I want to help, so… just… if you know I can help, just tell me.” Even him offering for help sounded awkward.
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Post by Max Madden on Mar 8, 2016 21:40:37 GMT 2
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Jacob's vision of forgiveness was rather funny and made the man chuckle. If it was what Ruby needed to forgive him, then he would do it until his knees bled. Starting over seemed to be a valid option. Like he could erase everything he had done in the past weeks and leave all that happened behind. He could feel a pull on his heart however at the thought that it would mean tonight was to be forgotten, in a way. There was something in the way Jacob dealt with all of this that made it seem like he didn't really want to forget. The tone in his voice hid like a regret that he wished to conceal. Wasn't it nice to know how people sound when they feel regret? The perks of being a detective. "If the need to do so comes up, then I promise I'll get to my knees and beg for forgiveness."
His definition of a couple seemed to contradict with Jacob's, but in the end he guessed he and Ruby must have been and looked just like one at times. But if they were a couple, a lot of things would be different. If they had both agreed that they were indeed that, Max would have invited her to live with him, and he believed Ruby may have done the same. They would have gotten out on dates more often and...they could have celebrated St Valentines day. He wasn't even sure when that was, but he believed it might have happened when he was still at the hospital. With everything that happened to them, it was hard to focus on something as insignificant as that holiday. If he and Ruby were a couple he may have even considered the future, a future that seemed to be completely gone now, but the flower of hope still grew in the desert. But it was hard to consider a future with the woman now that he knew a future with Jacob may be possible. He shut his mind about it, focusing on the present time and moment to take care of the man in his arms.
"You've already helped a lot Jacob. Thank you." his squeezed his embrace around the man tighter, lowering his head into his neck. They looked like two pieces of a jigsaw who seemed to fit perfectly together in that moment. "Am I still welcome to stay for the rest of the night? or Morning... Or I can go back home. Don't worry I can manage if that's what you want." he broke his embrace simply to look at the man. There was regret in his own eyes, regret that he wasn't able to control the entire situation called life a little better, so less people would be hurt. It was a good lesson for the future, lesson that he should think of every day until his end.
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Post by Jacob Pierce on Mar 8, 2016 22:33:23 GMT 2
----- Somebody or Some Body ----- --- Helping out --- If it was that easy. If all that Max had to do was to humiliate himself and beg for everything to be fixed, their lives would be much easier. But even if Ruby forgave Max for what happened, there still would be the broken trust for them to deal with. But even if it wasn’t the same, perhaps they could still move on. He still wished he could do more, talk to Ruby, figure out how she was feeling about all this, help Max make peace with her. He realized that was not something he could solve, it was an issue that belonged to Max and Ruby only, but maybe he could pay Ruby a visit soon. “Still. I feel like I just made things more complicated. Make you chose and all. It’s mostly your fault, but I didn't make things easier, I don’t think” It still felt awkward to mention his feelings, or Max feelings for him, like he couldn’t quite believe it; Max always said Jacob somehow helped, but this time, there was a mix of him making Max see reason and him making things harder to decide.
The embrace wasn’t broken all the while they spoke, it was easier for Jacob to say what he was thinking when he felt comfortable in the other man’s arms, he could hide his face and just speak, exactly like putting on a mask. But all nice things had to end sometime, and that hug was no different. Max broke their embrace, gazing at Jacob’s eyes with a sad look, full of regret, for what he lost, for what he could have, for this complicated situation he put himself into.
Even with all of this, Jacob still didn’t want Max to leave. Not only for the cop’s sake, but he didn’t wish to stay alone and dwell on his thoughts right now. “You can stay… I’d rather you stayed, but I won’t stop you from leaving.” Maybe it was better if Max just left, but a lot of decisions tonight were being made based on what Jacob wanted, not what should be done, he didn’t know why this one had to be any different. “I don’t think I could sleep after all this anyway. So you’ll have to keep me company.” He shot Max a small smile.
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Post by Max Madden on Mar 9, 2016 18:56:17 GMT 2
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It was true, and he was forced to admit, that all would be easier if this group was only composed of two people. But were they two, their wouldn't be this endless circle to save the others when their lives needed saving. To him, there was nothing to regret except the way he spoke to Ruby. He wished to kill himself for punishment as to how stupid he had been, and how he hadn't thought through his plans. His plans always backfired, so why should this one not?
"Complicated isn't always a bad thing. Look where complicated led us." he looked at the man shrugging very slightly. "If we were simple people then I would have aimed right that night in the alley, or you and Ruby would have finished your work at the harbor. I see no problem with a little bit of complicated from time to time. Like everything: A small dose of bad, is often good. Even for killing..." maybe those words he came to say would bring him acceptance for what he had done, and he might stop troubling himself over it. Maybe he can sleep soundlessly tonight.
Despite all that he had done, Jacob wasn't pushing him away or throwing him out like some stray agressive dog. Instead he was asking him to stay and a kind smile drew itself on his face for the first time since they started to yell at each other. It brought a hint of a smile to Max himself as he took Jacob's hand, folding it into a fist before thumping it against the J&R "Thank you for protecting me from myself." there was nothing else he wished to say, knowing that whatever he could say or do from now on was a danger to himself, Ruby, and Jacob. He now weighed his words like they were dynamite. But he knew he wanted to tell Jacob that he wasn't going to forget tonight, that this was not an escape plan, but a plan that had to be put on pause in order to sort everything out first. Time created Rome, and time will solve issues and create others. Just like Max creates problems to solve others, he needed to find a new strategy. Minus times Minus should no longer be applied. Instead apply the rules you make, take out the joker card and fuck up the world, because being born in an unfair world, there is no reason for you to play by the rules.
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